more and more i have been feeling like my life doesn't have a point to it. i am just wondering aimlessly and nobody cares if i win or lose. and why should they care? they have their own lives to worry about. but i just feel like a ghost; and i'm so, so lonely. i don't have any friends. i don't have anyone to just hang out with and do girl talk or cry and watch movies together. i've never had that and i want it. i always thought being alone was the way i wanted to live and more and more i'm rethinking that.
i don't know what to do though. let's be honest, my life is pulling me in so many directions. everything is seperated between 50 short but so, so far away miles. my job, my home, my boyfriend, art, the few friends i've got. everything is so far away. i don't know how to handle it.
recently i'm also starting to understand that i am only 21. i don't need to be working 40 hours a week, do i? i don't need to sit at this boring desk staring at the boring window. i could be out doing so much more. creating so much more. learning and enjoying my life instead of wasting it in an office.
maybe i'm just complaining or maybe i'm onto something here. either way, i need someone to talk to. i need someone to sit down with me and help me figure out my life.
Brittni, I don't know you very well but I do know that this helped me this last week when I was feeling discouraged:
ReplyDeletehttp://lds.org/study/prophets-speak-today/unto-all-the-world/despite-adversity-be-of-good-cheer?lang=eng&cid=facebook-shared
I hope it helps!